This week has been rough. I am hoping and praying that this coming week will be better. My laptop, Rose is not working. She shut down twice while I was doing work one night and now some random security system won't let me get on the internet. What is really awful is that she is only a year old and I don't know how to fix any of that stuff. One of my classes at school is also giving me some trouble and this week it just seemed like a culmination of all the hard work just buried me. How much of this is my fault and how much is just beyond my control?
Last night I was reading Philippians 1. I love reading Paul's writing and knowing all the struggles that he faced. This particular chapter was talking about Paul's desire to be with Jesus, but also how for him to live was for the Philippians' benefit. He talked about how he wanted to be in heaven, but maybe why he was still on earth was for those he was ministering to. I too have a purpose on earth. I do not know for sure what it is. Maybe in this season of my life, the Lord has put me in Sebring to minister to the youth here, the little kids that I watch at work, or maybe that girl I talk to in my class. Whatever the Lord has for me, I want to fulfill my purpose. I want Him to be pleased with my actions. If my purpose is for that other person, I pray that I will live out my faith so that they too will be drawn to God's love and grace. My purpose and actions shouldn't change based on my emotions.
That passage was really encouraging to me. It made me step back and look at the big picture rather than the bad stuff that I was having to deal with. I was able to say, yeah, I might be struggling, but God is in control. His will is what I want done, not mine. Even though I want my computer to work and all my classes to be easy, I need to step back and say, what is God's purpose and plan in this situation. Just like Pastor Randy said this morning, His story is so much more important than my story.
Last night I was reading Philippians 1. I love reading Paul's writing and knowing all the struggles that he faced. This particular chapter was talking about Paul's desire to be with Jesus, but also how for him to live was for the Philippians' benefit. He talked about how he wanted to be in heaven, but maybe why he was still on earth was for those he was ministering to. I too have a purpose on earth. I do not know for sure what it is. Maybe in this season of my life, the Lord has put me in Sebring to minister to the youth here, the little kids that I watch at work, or maybe that girl I talk to in my class. Whatever the Lord has for me, I want to fulfill my purpose. I want Him to be pleased with my actions. If my purpose is for that other person, I pray that I will live out my faith so that they too will be drawn to God's love and grace. My purpose and actions shouldn't change based on my emotions.
That passage was really encouraging to me. It made me step back and look at the big picture rather than the bad stuff that I was having to deal with. I was able to say, yeah, I might be struggling, but God is in control. His will is what I want done, not mine. Even though I want my computer to work and all my classes to be easy, I need to step back and say, what is God's purpose and plan in this situation. Just like Pastor Randy said this morning, His story is so much more important than my story.
2 comments:
Emilita! I'll have to tell you TOMORROW(!!!!flipping out!!!) my response to this post. I really should read your posts more often. They are so encouraging Em.
take heart em! i hope things are going much better for you by the time you read this!
i was wondering when you get those wisdoms out. let me know and i'll be praying.
i miss you.
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