Jesus is my fulfillment.

All of You is more than enough for all of me
For every thirst and every need you satisfy me

With Your LOVE and all I have in You is more that enough.

Delight yourself in the LORD; And He will give you the desires of your heart.

Psalm 37:4

I have this longing inside of me. I know that it can not be filled with anything more than God. I want the desires of my heart to be what His will is. Not what I want, but what He wants. The longing that I have has to be turned over to Him.

Lord, You are my supply, my breath of life. Still more awesome than I know!

Camp!

Well, it's the weekend and I have a little down time and rest. Camp has been going really well. Two weeks down, three more to go. Senior high and junior high were the first weeks and tonight I will head back for some staff training for the pioneer week aka the little kids. The past few weeks have been good but challenging. This is my first year counseling, but so far I love it and am really glad that God laid it on my heart to become involved with Camp Mantowagan. This upcoming week I will be counseling with Shaheen, which should be awesome!

I am struggling a little with having my own time in the day to have devotions and just spend my own quiet time with the Lord. I know that I will need to make more of an effort to get up early or stay up later, but sleep is such a precious thing to me during camp that I am struggling to give that up. It really is all about priorities and I want the Lord to be first. Senior high week was awesome because we actually had scheduled time to spend with the Lord, but this past week we had to do it on our own time. I know that with little kids I will have to be with them at all times so, I am fully aware that I will have to sacrifice some time. I am ready to do that and I am getting really excited for the coming few days.

I would really appreciate your prayers for camp and also just that God will use me and have His will in my life and at camp. Thank you all in advance:)

The End to a new Beginning

Well, it has taken me awhile to actually come online, but we are done. About three weeks ago on a Sunday night, we graduated. Then, the very next day five of the twelve people I lived with for a year, left. It was a bittersweet goodbye, but I know that those people are ones I can call up and talk to anytime I need to. They are friends that I know I can always rely on and I know that they have learned just as much as I have this year. I will still miss them tremendously.
So, what's next? I am going to be a counselor at a small summer camp in PA with one of the girls from GCBI. I am so excited and I will leave in a week and a half to head up there. I signed up for classes today too at the local community college. I was excited to hear that if I took two full semesters and a few classes in the next summer, I would get my AA in a year. This next week is my last week at work too. I feel like things that I love so much are ending, but I know that that means there are new things in store for me. I know that God has a bigger plan for me and everyday He is revealing more of Himself to me and His will for my life. That is my goal, to live a moment by moment surrendered life for my King. As things end and new things begin in my life, He is in control and I am ready for what He has. I know that some of it is hard, but He is the One I am following and wanting to please. His plan is the only one I am willing to follow. Living life with my hands open.

Winding down...

This year has gone by so fast. It is really amazing to me that so much time has past, but it feels like yesterday we were at orientation and I was nervous about meeting so many new people. Now they feel like family and I am sitting here in the common room with a few other people and this feels so much like home.

Tomorrow we all with load up once again in our van with our teacher Pastor Randy and go to a couple of churches in Florida. We are going to be helping them in any way that we can, whether it be hard labor or just encouraging there. This will be our last big trip together as a team. I am excited to go and I know that given the people that the trip will be with, it will me a good trip.
As this year comes to a close, it's really sad, but I am realizing that God has big plans for me and even though they might involve still staying in Sebring, I know that God will help me take what I've learned this year and use it for His glory. Next year, I plan on going to the community college here and also being involved with the youth here. Hopefully too, since I've been through the program, I will be able to tell the other people who are here next year how the year is and also, what to expect and hopefully form a relationship with them too. Basically all I know is that God has a plan for me and that whatever happens next year and in my distant future, that He is in control and I can always fall back on His character and love.

Trip!

Today we had class after a week of not having any at all. It was so good to get back into the Word, I realized that having a week off was a good indication of what I will be like after GCBI. I disappointed myself by not doing a very good job of still be responsible and getting into the Word. But today, we jumped back in and it was fantastic. We went over some of the gospels and some of Jesus' life. What a great God we have! He emptied himself it says in Philippians 2 for us. That means that He had the right and the authority to do anything He wanted, but He gave up all of that in order to come to the earth and die for us! That is so crazy to me. Why would a God who sees all of my faults and my failures want to have a loving personal relationship with me? It is so great that Pastor Randy will say one thing in class and that gets me thinking about my salvation and the thankfulness I should have about it.
On top of that, today we talked a little bit about the trip. For those of you who don't know, and there are only like 5 people who read this blog anyway...I am going to Israel in less than a week! I am getting so excited! We talked today about all the places we will be going and all the things that Pastor Randy will expound on in the gospels! I really wasn't that excited about the trip, don't get me wrong. I've been praying about it and I know that it will be a good trip, but I was focused more about all the events that are going on before we leave. Well, today has gotten me so excited and I am ready to go!
So, please pray about the trip and everything prior to that! Thanks and good night!

Christmas Break is over...

Well, we had a month off to see our family and celebrate the holidays. We just got back into classes this week! I am so glad that we are back into the swing of things. I am so excited to learn more about the Bible and to think that I have another semester to do it, yay! My break was really good. We went to Pennsylvania to visit my family. It was really nice to leave here for awhile and to get to see my family that I only get to see like twice a year. I also love Christmas in general. I know that I am a little late to write about all this stuff. Well, we went over some minor prophets today and Tuesday. We studied Obadiah, Jonah, and Haggai. We also studied Jude. I am so glad to be back and to study the Bible more. I know that I am becoming repetitive so I am going to end this blog post. All of that to say that I am even more thankful to be here. Thanks for your prayers and everything!

My Family

This weekend we had to get out of the institute because they were tenting and getting rid of the pests. How nice. All of the students had to find a house from someone at the church to crash at. I am from here so, it wasn't hard to find a place to stay for a couple of days. I have been home for a week now. In a way it feels like I never left, but then I remember, oh, my sister took my bed and all the space in the bathroom. Never mind.
All that to say that I really love and appreciate my family. They are always helping me or giving me money (which I seem to be out of all the time). I am so glad that I have them and that I can look at my dad and say, yeah, he really does love me. My dad, I love him so much and know that he is who I will be comparing any future husband to. He is so committed to my family and the Lord. He is a great role model. My mom is great and is always willing to listen to me rant and rave about whatever I am upset about. She is so wonderful! I love my sibs too. Life would be incomplete without any one of them. I love them all so much.
This whole blog to say that I appreciate my family and am so glad that I got to hang out with them and see them daily.

Love you guys!