Chinese

Tonight Shane and I had Chinese take-out. I do not believe in the fortune cookies, but they crack me up. My favorite, hands down is the one I got tonight.

"To lower your stress level, get a cat."

How did we get here?

I work at my church's daycare. And I love it. I started about a month ago. Recently I ordered three CDs from Amazon.com. When I first get a CD, I like to listen to it everywhere I go. The perfect amount of listening is when I can sing along and know some of the words. I am not at that point yet with my new CDs. So how do these two facts coincide? I have been bringing the CDs to work. I love putting them in and watching as the little one year olds start dancing to David Crowder. As I was laughing and nodding my head along, I thought to myself...how do we get to this point? When is it in life that we just stop dancing? These little kids around me were loving life and moving along to the beat of the song. Why is it that teens or adults don't do that? What happened that made us stop being so free? It made me think of that song from Fee, I am free. One of the lines in that song says, I am free to dance. To me, dancing is just a letting go. A chance to let loose whatever is holding us back. I don't know if any of these thoughts make sense or how they go together, but I was thinking about the simplicity of these little boys and how I, at 19 years old, am missing that. All this to say, life is short. Sometimes you just have to be a little wild and not so serious. So next time when those little one year olds dance to my David Crowder CD, I think I will be dancing right along with them.

Speech Class

So, today in my speech class, we had to do a journal entry. The one question we had to answer was, Who am I? That was it. We had five minutes to answer that question. I didn't really think about what I was writing until the end when I reviewed it. Here it is:

I am the daughter of the King, I am His being loved child. I am a girl who is sometimes insecure, but is then able to recognize my identity in Him. I am stubborn and extroverted. I tend to be shy in situations that are new or uncomfortable. I am a good listener and somewhat of a hard worker. I am a good student, although I procrastinate. I love my family, but don't always act like it. I am organized in my own unorganized way. I live for my Creator, knowing that He loves me and that is all I need.

When I got done and time was up. I looked at it and all I could think about was how thankful I was that I didn't describe myself in a negative way. A few years ago and maybe even recently too, I would have put some negative things about my appearance or personality. But instead I was able to see how God views me. I was able to see that I knew my identity was in Him and that He valued me. It was so refreshing to see that. I know that I have flaws and that I am far from perfect. I have so much more to learn in my walk with God, but it is refreshing to look in the mirror and know that I am loved more then I will ever know.
A little while ago, my friend and I were talking about how some preachers have their own overall message they want to portray to people. I know that I am not a preacher, nor will I ever be, but if I had to choose something that I would talk to people about if given the chance, it would probably be self worth and identity. I write about it so much on this blog (even though know one reads it), it is so important to me. I pray that I will always be able to see who I am in Christ and in that, I will be able to help others who might struggle with that as well.

p.s. The picture up top is a painting by Norman Rockwell, that I really like.